Knock Knock.... Anybody Home?

My path to spirituality is dotted with many pot holes, speed bumps and naps along the way. I was raised by a Lutheran mother and a non-practicing Roman Catholic father. My mom, sisters and I went to church on Sunday's, we were in Sunday school and I was in the choir. I loved nothing more than choir practice and singing at Sunday services. I tried really hard to get into my Sunday school teachings but to be honest it never really made much sense to me. I can remember having to memorize the books of the bible as one of our lessons. We would be tested on this subject, and rewarded with a star or a cookie if we could memorize them all. Unfortunately I could never get past the book of Joshua despite my rigorous studies. I can remember the other kids in class making fun of me because I simply could not memorize the names in order like all of them could. I seriously thought there was something wrong with me. This, coupled with my mom's favorite saying being  "God will get you". It's still her favorite saying to this very day. I felt as if God was some sort of boogieman hiding under my bed or in my closet just waiting for me to screw up so he could come out and "get me." These are bone chilling thoughts when you're a child and really have no idea who this God person is, or how to actually create a relationship with him like you're told you should. I also never understood who this trio of holy folks were that our pastor would speak so highly of during service. "The Father"? ok I got that one, it's GOD... easy. "The Son"? Wait, that's aka for Jesus right? But then there's that last one, the "Holy Ghost". WHAT? There's GHOSTS in church? That simply can't be right! My 7 year old brain was now convinced that God was the boogieman and ghosts attended church with us and that it was okay with this Jesus fella, who apparently used to be a regular guy, right up until they nailed him up on that wooden cross for crimes that escaped my mind. (We won't even get into how Mary fits into the picture) So now I'm afraid that these holy ghosts are going to follow me home and tell the boogieman where to find me. I'm completely terrified by this point. I still went to choir practice on Wednesdays, Sunday School and service on Sundays and occasionally would volunteer to be in a church play or some other extra churchy activity. I remember thinking that if I kept doing everything they told us to do as God-loving children, and maybe went a little beyond, that I would magically figure out what the heck everyone was talking about and what exactly was so amazing about having a relationship with this God person. I was also troubled by things that I could not explain, such as hearing voices, seeing things nobody else could see, and knowing stuff that I could not explain how I knew. I was convinced that if I had an actual relationship with God, like they have all been talking about, none of this would be happening. I felt as though I was damaged merchandise.

I attended this church right up until I entered the 7th grade, at which time we moved to another town. We never went to a regular church as a family after our move. I occasionally would go to service with friends, but each time I attended a new church I ended up having the same questions... God? Jesus? And Ghosts... and what was worse,  my friends would ask me if I accepted Jesus as my lord and savior. Talk about completely confused now, because I thought that GOD was our savior. Oh man, someone changed the rules on me.
I basically abandoned all hopes of a God-filled life, only occasionally attending a service or mass with friends and always leaving feeling more lost than before.

 It wasn't until my mid 20's that I had a sort of spiritual awakening. I had a very profound dream about God, the Universe and creation. The next Sunday I went to the nearest church I could find. I was just sure that God was talking to me. Imagine my disappointment when I didn't find God at the church, at least not at the same time the service was going on. I decided to go to the library and see if I could find some books on various religions. I thought that maybe I could find God at another church or in another faith. Perhaps I just hadn't looked in the right place yet. I ended up reading every single book I could get my hands on in regards to religion. Eastern religion, Western religion, made-up religion, etc. and after a long search settled somewhere in the realm of Earth religion and Paganism. It seemed to be logical to me that God was in everything around us and that all I had to do was look out the window to find the magic and mystery that I'd been searching for all along. I started looking at life in a whole new way. I found wonder and magic in everything around me. I really felt as though my relationship with God through nature was starting to unfold and I was excited.

My research and worship of nature continued for many years. I read everything I could get my hands on. I researched like a mad scientist, sucking in all of the knowledge and storing it away for a rainy day. I continued on my path until my mid 30's when life went spiraling out of control. I went through a pretty nasty divorce and what I like to call a pre mid-life crisis. I grabbed my kids and we retreated. In doing so I kind of put my search for and my relationship with God on hold as I felt it wasn't really important to put my energy into my spirituality at that time. Life went on and for the most part things just kind of fell into routine for us, not paying any attention to our lack of spirituality. I was even able to suppress my intuition, albeit not intentionally.

About a year ago something happened. It was as if God, the Universe was tapping on my head saying WAKE UP! Anybody home? Knock knock, your vacation is over. With that the strange occurrences I had experienced as a child came back a hundred-fold. I started hearing voices, as if I'd stepped into a radio shop and every single radio was on at the same time, set to different channels at different volumes. The images and mini-movies would flood my mind with each person I'd come in contact with. It's almost like watching home movie clips of their lives in my head. I started having dreams of the most profound nature. I started traveling in my sleep and when I would wake up in the morning I felt as though I had never gone to sleep at all. I felt as though someone ripped off my safe little door to the Universe and tossed it away. There was no way for me to close it so I started researching again. This time I would rely on instinct while at the book store or library. If there was a subject I was supposed to research the books would be almost illuminated on the shelves. The subjects weren't like anything I'd really been interested in before. The subjects were a lot about healing, energy work, the cosmos, angels, spirit guides and even ghosts. I even found myself doing a bit of research on quantum mechanics. I was definitely past the point of no return. There was no going back to my "head under the blankets" life. The Universe and yes God spoke loud and clear to me. They told me that I have a clear and concise task. I must help others find their own path and their own way to Spirit through healing and love because love is the only way to raise our vibrations high enough to heal the damage we have done as humans, to ourselves and our planet. 

I'm so glad I was home to answer the door when they knocked!

Teaching Credentials Please!!

The saddest thing that too many of my clients have in common are the bad experiences they've had with spiritual advisers. This left me pondering several scenarios as to exactly why there was so much misinformation going out to these poor people when they have given all of their trust and all of their faith to these advisers. Part of it, I believe, cannot be fully blamed on the adviser. While they mean well they simply aren't qualified to be counseling others but the advisers fail to recognize that because they are simply seeing through their ego selves. Maybe they've read some books or taken a few courses on spiritual counseling, intuitive mediumship or energy healing. What they don't realize is that even though you can go through the motions step by step, it almost never makes you a qualified adviser. It takes time, practice and a lot of effort to be an adept light worker. Even if you were born with the gift of sight or healing it in no way means that you automatically know how to use it to the benefit of others.

The second scenario is money. Money motivates even the most honest of people to do things that they wouldn't normally do. Some people look at those who seek spiritual advice as walking suckers! I mean think about it, to most folks the spirit world isn't something most of us get to see first hand. We rely on our mediums and intuits to guide us and pass along messages from our dearly departed, spirit guides and angels. We trust that our spiritual counselor is honest in everything that he or she tells us. Often we take it to the very heart of our souls. We have no choice but to trust since we have not found the ability to reach the beyond for ourselves. Wide open swings the door to a whole new breed of con-man (or woman)!! I had one client pay a fortune to some "psychic" for phone readings and "angel messages". Her adviser was such a fraud that with every message there was a convenient link to a product, that if purchased, would help her get closer in vibration to the angel who supposedly sent the message. This sounds like a whole lot of snake oil to me. These types of scam artists masquerading as mediums and psychics can do a lot of psychological damage. The damage is often hard to reverse.

When I decided to offer my service as an intuitive medium online, I did it with great trepidation. I wasn't actually sure how it would work out since my client and I would not be sitting in the same space and I wasn't sure if I would be able to connect with them. It took a lot of meditation, soul searching and spiritual counseling of my own, with my personal guides and angels to finally be confident with myself enough to take that first step! Thankfully I found that it was quite easy to connect to an Internet clients situation and receive the messages that were meant for them. By no means did I wake up one day and say "Hey I got a deck of tarot cards and I'm low on cash, lets see if I can throw something together and make some money". No, it's never that easy!  The only result would be a lot of bad reviews and more misinformation being passed along, no matter how well intentioned I was. In fact, although I used to read tarot cards for others many years ago I never did it for financial gain. I did it because I knew that my ability to be the messenger for the spirit realm and pass on information to others was more important than any job I would ever have. It took me many years to get to the here and now. I did a lot of cleaning up of "my own backyard" to be in a place of peace and perfect love and to make sure I was never ruled by my ego again. I am now happily willing and able to be of service to others.

I guess all in all I am just concerned about what I am seeing and the damage that can result from even the most well intentioned people when they lead with their ego, instead of their heart. I wonder if they even know they are leading with their ego? So now I ask you, what are your teaching credentials? Are you really qualified to be doing this type of work? I rode a motorcycle once but that certainly doesn't qualify me to teach you how to do it.

Embrace The Shallow People In Your Life.... Really!!

"Embrace the shallow people in your life. For they are the ones that teach us how to recognize and appreciate the depth in others!"

As I'm minding my own business, vacuuming up the house I get this very nice message from one of my guides. They tell me that it's okay that not everyone in my life has what I would consider a character of substance. Some people are just so wrapped up in their daily stuff that they don't ever consider that there is more to life than what's going on at that very moment. Some people are very much of the ME ME ME variety. Everything they do is motivated by how they can benefit from their actions , especially when it comes to helping others. They are very much a part of the "what's in it for me" crowd. Their motivations are so strikingly clear that everything they do involves a hitch and they simply will not do something out of kindness unless they feel that there will be a reward.

I have to be honest and say that once upon a time I was a part of the ME crowd also. I think that maybe we're all guilty of that at one time or another. I used to think that if I was nice, loving and giving to others that they automatically "owed me" the same return treatment. Luckily I found out at a relatively early age that this was definitely not the rule.  Even though I was outwardly kind and giving to others, (while secretly waiting for return) most people were oblivious to my kindness or just simply didn't care.

It is my experience that if you learn to embrace and appreciate everyone for who and what they are, whether flawed or not, it opens your heart up to experience complete and true love. With every negative experience a positive view point can be gained. As you go through life gathering information, experiences and memories you open up to seeing the world and it's people in a totally new light.

It is true that love does conquer all and when you learn to be positive, the ME crowd no longer makes you feel sad because you know that their actions are a gift to you from the Universe to help you become someone who radiates light and love.

Fill your heart with joy and kindness and it will radiate in everything that you do.

Three Readings Later

So here I am sitting, just having finished typing out and sending off my third email reading. My readings were sort of a test of my abilities to connect as I said before. I've gotten feedback from the first two clients, both very positive and it looks like I've been accurate. This is good to know considering these people are kind enough to be paying me for my insight. (wow really? I can get paid too??)

I noticed that often times the information come in a little bit fragmented. I'll read my clients information, name, date of birth and what ever short question they have typed out to me. Immediately I get hit with what I like to call INFO BULLETS. The information comes in fast and hard just like a bullet would. I have to scramble to try to write it all down just in case I can't remember it later. This bombardment of initial information only lasts 20 seconds at the most then stops as quick as it started. I'll then get up and go about my business keeping the person and situation in my mind throughout the days evens in an effort to get more information or messages from my guides and angels depending on what they want me to know. I like to give myself a couple of days before I send off the reading. This allows me to gather the information and see how consistent the messages are. My first reading I feel like I really blew it. I was getting hit with a single word over and over and over in my head and I never "spit it out" and I should have. I tried to rationalize reasons to keep the information to myself. Apparently when the Universe OFFERS information to me about someone else it is because I am supposed to pass along that information. I really thought about this one singular mistake and decided that if the Universe doesn't want me to blab my mouth off to my client about a certain subject, they simply will not share that information with me... period.
So while many intuitives have a hard time with the "logic filter". I just have a hard time sharing ALL the information that I am given. I promised myself after that first reading that I will share it all, just blurt it out and let my client figure out where all the pieces fit.
In conclusion I have to say I sincerely enjoy this type of work. I've always done it, but this is the first time someones ever offered to pay me for it. I'm not getting rich by any stretch of the imagination but it's nice to be able to afford cat food or paper towels once in a while. The best part is when someone says thank you and that the information helped them. I really LOVE that part!.

Unknown Teacher -- Anchors of Light

I am on the email list of the 11:11 progress group and sometimes I get emails from this list that are so close to what I, and others that I know are going through it's kind of spooky. Sometimes the emails that come through this list are just kind of weird and I read through them and file them appropriately. Tonight I received one of those close to home emails and I thought I'd share it will all of you.

Unknown Teacher: “Things are very rapidly changing on your world -- some things according to plan, others have to be revised and recalculated.  Each one of you on the 11:11 list is known to us, and we ask each of you to pay close attention to the inner life and the inner voice as you will be guided through the many changes that are now taking place, and which are about to occur in the near future as the Correcting Time mandates are executed.  Turn off the TV and the radio -- sanctify yourself and remove from your life the media drama of violence, hatred, malice, greed, revenge, and all other forms of fear and negativism that the public at large ingests on a daily basis that keeps them in bondage to the worldly powers.
“You are to be the anchors of light and a voice of hope in this world as these many changes come upon you.  Be not afraid when you hear of calamitous events, and realize that the dawn of Light and Life approaches, which will bring true freedom to all humanity as the chains of bondage are disassembled.  Many will be looking to you for answers as they find no solace in the assurances of politicians and governments.  The old models of political brainwashing will no longer work on the ‘ignorant masses’, for human consciousness is undergoing great changes in awareness for which many will stand at the bottom and look up to those of higher vibration and light for direction.
“When the tactics of the elites and the old paradigms of control no longer fool the masses, their methods will become more desperate, and their crimes will be more horrendous.  Stay grounded my friends, and listen for direction from on high, for we are with you and around you at all times ready to serve those who align themselves with the forces of light and those who do the Will of our Paradise Father.
“It is time to close the door of your room and sit in the presence of your Indwelling Spirit.  Ask for guidance and direction -- ask for clarity in the decisions you are about to make.  Seek the refuge of lasting things that are ‘real’ and let go of the ego wants of self gratification.  Love, faith, and relationships are real.  Fear, darkness, and materialism are unreal -- choose wisely, live in peace, hope, and in the blessed assurances of sonship with God, for you are the children of the Most High.
“My peace I leave with you.”

While the true nature of where these email messages originate is unknown, it is said that  they are being sent to us from our celestial  guardians. I don't know how much I really believe that but I enjoy the list anyway. You can subscribe yourself if you wish by visiting this link.

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